I wish I could sleep. I wish I knew why I can’t ever sleep. I really do not think it’s insomnia. I guess it’s mostly just if I have something to focus on I can and will stay up indefinably until I get so exhausted that I just pass out.
But I’ve been doing it for so long that I can actually go for days only about 4 hours of sleep per day?
So when I DO get a good night’s rest my body just goes WOO OKAY NOW WE’VE GOT THE ENERGY TO GO.
Except it doesn’t.
It just has barely enough to keep scraping by.
I can’t shut my head up EVER. I have to actually lay down and force myself to stay down and not think of ANYTHING in order to sleep. If I let myself think I start thinking of stuff I want/feel like I need to do and I get up to go do it.
I guess the other good way to get me to sleep is make me watch a movie that I’ve already seen before and it’s not something I’m terribly interested in or wasn’t interested in in the first place.
Or let me be close to someone. If I can be close to someone else and they let me touch them and I’m not too scared to ask if I can make the contact. I can fall asleep pretty well.